…what followed was the oddest pause I’ve ever experienced since high school.

my (not-so-secret) admirer

I have an admirer, it seems.

There’s a girl who comes in every few days to my place of work (heretofore known as the “Day Job”) who I believe has a crush on me. At the very least, she’s trying very hard to be noticed by me.

The people who pass through almost always smile if you make eye contact with them, and some will say “hi”… but she’s the only one who flashes me a somewhat bashful smile each & every time she sees me, and the only person I don’t know who has actually said hello to me without my making eye contact first… today she literally snuck up behind me and shot a perky “Hi!” to me… had she walked by without saying anything, I wouldn’t have been any the wiser.

All of this could be my imagination, if our first encounter hadn’t been an odd one: I was working when she interrupted me with: “Excuse me…” I turned, and what followed was the oddest pause I’ve ever experienced since high school. It felt exactly like that, too; like when you sense that someone’s working up to asking you something big, such as going to the prom with them, and you know they’re going to ask it right then.

She ended up asking for something work-related, but I can’t help trusting my gut feeling on this one. There are few people with whom I’ve felt a strong chemistry, and those few people have become my closest friends.

It’s flattering to have an admirer, though; not an experience I’ve often had…

Mila (Jacob Stetser)

Mila is a writer, photographer, poet & technologist.

He shares here his thoughts on Buddhism, living compassionately, social media, building community,
& anything else that interests him.

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